Personal Story: Life with Pain.

This is a different sort of post to what you’d usually find here, I’ve been toying with the idea of sharing this story for a while now and to be honest I am petrified of publishing it. I don’t know why, I just am. I have not shared this story to get anyone’s sympathy vote, I some times post a moaning tweet but no one actually knows the story apart from close family and friends, so I hope this sheds a bit of light on those. I also hope that it will potentially open peoples eyes to being more understanding and sensitive to people in similar situations. It’s quite a long story so apologies in advance and I hope you’ve got a cuppa ready.

Living life with pain

Nearly 8 years ago I was hit by a bus while crossing the road. Parts of what happened are still hazy and I am still not sure how much I do/don’t remember but here is the story to the best of my memory.

It was around 4pm in November, I had popped out of work to nip across the road for afternoon biscuits for our little team. The road is a very busy, well known road in Sheffield. Its one of those that has a bus lane on either side plus a lane for “normal traffic” so as you can imagine it was really wide. It had already gone dark and the opposite side of the road was at a stand still. I looked to my right and a bus was well up the road at some lights, someone, to my left, waved me across the road. I didn’t look to my right again. BIG MISTAKE. I placed my right foot into the road and was just about to step fully into the bus lane when something, I don’t know what or why told me to look again. I did. The bus was inches away from me.

Strangely I did not feel panicked, my first instinct was to turn away from the bus while trying to step back onto the pavement. I actually thought I had got away with it, but it turns out I was flung into air and the pavement, when I hit the floor with the left hand side of my face I realised I hadn’t gotten away with it. I still find it strange that I don’t remember feeling the bus hit me. A woman started screaming, screaming so loud that I tried to get up and comfort her but my body just wouldn’t work. Someone else kept telling me to lay still on the floor until help arrived but I kept protesting saying I was okay. Within seconds my face and lips had swollen to such an extent that I could see my lips and cheeks while looking ahead. I then became very cold and sleepy. I don’t know who the people were who stopped and stayed with me until an ambulance arrived but it seemed like I was laying on the pavement, in the cold and spitting rain for hours with everyone telling me to not fall asleep. They were all really kind and I wish I could thank them. I don’t remember the ambulance arriving or the journey to the hospital.

I know I arrived into A&E strapped to a board with a collar on. I recall a Doctor asking me if I was in any pain and I said no, in hindsight I probably was but the adrenaline was pumping through me. At this point they whipped me off the board and took the collar off me and made me walk through to a bay. My experience of A&E was not fantastic to say the least, I had been hit by a bus travelling around 30 mph yet I was not given any scans, x-rays or even had any of my many wounds cleaned. I was merely sent on my merry way after being in there for a whole 30 mins.

The next day the pain was intense, when people say they feel like they’ve been hit by a bus they really don’t know how that feels. We tried to clean the wounds as best we could but sadly I got an infection. My left foot which was on the curb had slipped off and got wedged between that and the buses wheel. As I turned away and got hit the force of it flung me onto the air and pavement, with my foot wedged, my skin had been stripped on a large part of my foot as something had to give. I ended up with frequent visits from the District Nurse to clean my wounds and change the dressing to avoid further complications. She was actually quite disgusted that they hadn’t cleaned me up in A&E as this would have probably reduced the infection risk massively. I received two sessions of physiotherapy on the NHS and was apparently not entitled to any more despite needing it.

Fast forward nearly 8 years on and I still suffer with various pain issues. My ankle is still very week and painful, especially when its cold. It has very little strength and I have to take this into account if I’m planning on walking or doing any activity. My left arm will not extend fully and the tip of my elbow is deformed. It is also very painful most days, this extends to my wrist and I suffer with painful pins and needles throughout the day/night. On very bad days it is so weak I struggle to hold a cup or drive a car. I have back and hip pain, all though this is probably the least painful issue. I hit the pavement with mainly the left side of my face/body. My lips and nose are now slightly off centre, which does not bother me too much but I suffer with constant pain in my ear/jaw. This never stops, it is always there and is probably the worst part of my pain problems and can reach unbearable levels when I am tired/stressed.

Despite this I do feel so very lucky, it could have been so much worse. I’ve pretty much given up hope of getting help through my Doctor/NHS, no one seems willing or is able to do anything for me. I have paid for private physiotherapy sessions but at up to £60 a time it isn’t affordable for me anymore. I am in some form of pain everyday, I put a smile one and try to front it out, most people would not know. On bad days I moan, whinge and pop over the counter painkillers like sweets.

Thankfully the vast majority of my family and friends have all been great and try to understand but there are a few arseholes. They are the reason for this post, please don’t be one of them. If you know someone who suffers with any form of pain please try to be understanding. Ask them if they are having a good/bad day pain wise and if they say bad offer to do something to make their day a little easier. Trust me, it will be appreciated and please remember just because someone doesn’t look like they are in pain doesn’t mean they aren’t.

If anyone is suffering with any sort of pain/accident problems and you feel like you don’t have anyone to chat to, please, please send me an email, tweet, DM anything. I’d love to chat to you.

Indeed Labs Hydraluron Moisture Boosting face mask

Is your skin a little dry? Perhaps dehydrated and a little lack luster? If you answered yes to either or both of those questions then this sheet mask from Indeed Labs maybe just what your looking for. The Hydraluron Moisture Boosting face mask is basically a gallon of water for your face. It uses 3D timed release technology (what ever that is?) of hyaluronic acid to give your skin a moisture boost that will last 24 hours.

hyaluronic Face mask by indeed labs

The sheet mask is not pretty but its lovely and cooling on the skin. You sit back, relax and let your skin soak up all that lovely HA. If you do want to move around with the face mask on it does cling well enough for you to do so.

After I took the face mask off it was pretty dry which was a brilliant sign that my skin had absorbed the product, there was also quite a bit left in the sachet which I squeezed out and massaged into my face and neck.

hyaluronic Face mask by indeed labs

My skin afterwards felt so plump and hydrated as well as looking glowing. This lasted for a good 24 hours and the next morning my make up looked so much better. These masks are perfect in preparation for a special occasion, if you need a bit of a pick up from being run down etc or would be amazing on holiday post flight.

I managed to pick these up from TK Maxx for a bargain price of £5.99. You can usually find them in Boots but the RRP is £19.99, all though they do have 1/3 off at the moment making them £13.33. Even at £20.00 if, I was off on holiday or wanted them for a special occasion I would certainly happily pay full whack for them. You can get from Boots by visiting HERE

I seem to loving skin care at the moment and have some more skincare products that are due to be tested after my current moisturiser has ran out. I’m currently using the Good Things Manuka Honey one which I’ve loved for the past few months and you can read all about it HERE

Good Things Manuka Honey Daily Moisturiser

Regardless of your skin type you need moisture, yes even if your oily, moisturising is still an important step in any skin care routine. If you skip this step your skin will dry out and in turn start to produce more oil and contribute to blocked pores as well as breakouts. While the thought of lathering your face with a thick night cream might send you running for the hills and have you worried about break outs well fear not. The Good Things Manuka Honey Daily Moisturiser may just be the answer to your needs.

GOOD THINGS MANUKA HONEY MOISTURISE

This lightweight deeply hydrating mosituriser contains royal jelly and beeswax. Bee venom helps to boost collagen while propolis and manuka boast antibacterial properties. It doesn’t contain any of the following nasties: mineral oil, parabens or sodium laureth sulphate as well as being suitable for vegetarians. Obviously if you are allergic to bee stings you would need to avoid this but if, like me you adore the smell of honey you will love this.

The moisturiser has got the balance between being creamy but not too thick just right, I find its easily absorbed into the skin and leave my face feeling supple, hydrated and just a bit healthier. I slot this in my morning routine after I’ve cleansed and also in an evening after the usual double cleanse and tone. I’ve been using this now for around 10 months and I’ve re-purchased this every time its ran out as its so affordable and does what it says on the label.

GOOD THINGS MANUKA HONEY MOISTURISE

You can buy Good Things Manuka Honey moisturiser from Boots for £7.99 for 100ml. I have also been able to spot this in a few TKMaxx stores for just £3.99 so it really offers amazing value. The only thing which I dislike about this product is the face it comes in a cardboard box which is not needed and just a waste.

Dinkibelle Nail Wraps: Easy nail designs + Giveaway*

The lovely people over at Dinkibelle were kind enough to send me some gorgeous nail wraps. I love having nice nails and usually get acrylics with gel polish so the nails wraps were intriguing to me. I was also skeptical about if they would actually work.

Each packet contains 20 nails wraps and cost £6.99. The wraps are fairly easy to apply, simply stick them to your nail and file off the excess. They do recommend that you add a clear polish or gel top coat to your nails to make them last as long as possible. Removal is super easy, peel off or use polish remover.

My first attempt was passable, to be fair I did them in a massive rush late at night and they still turned out wearable. I had many compliments on my nails, how pretty the looked and how did I get them so sparkly?! The option I’m wearing is Sea Foam Sparkle. They lasted me a good 10 days before I decided to take them off, If I’d have taken my time and put a proper gel top coat on then they would have lasted 14 days easily, if not longer. I did try to put them on my toes but I couldn’t get a file in to file around the edges of my nails so ended up with them on my big toes only. In hindsight I should have cut the wraps to smaller pieces rather than just stick them on too big and try to file them. Oh well, I know for next time don’t I?

Check out Dinkibelle by clicking HERE

Dinkibelle nail wraps

Dinkibelle also sent me another pack of the sea foam sparkle wraps to giveaway. You can enter below via rafflecopter.

Dinkibelle nail wraps

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